Yesterday I gave up being vegan because my whole family hated me for it. Today, I did not take enough food to work and started eating in the afternoon and never stopped. I thought I could be “good” by getting up early and working out. I totally blew that off. I decided to start this blog to mark my slow progression towards turning 40.
I am supposed to be an educated, middle-aged woman but sometimes I am a complete mess. I totally have to fake it at work, seemingly totally “with it” and “together”. Is anyone totally together and with it? It is 7:51 pm and I am wishing that I could still work out. That remains to be seen. I am reading a book by a Buddhist monk and it tells me to love myself, warts and all. Can we really do that? This sound like a lot of shit for a normal person. I am also addicted to celebrity online poop. I look at www.perezhilton.com and www.eonline.com at least 1x a day. It that normal?
Here is what I had to eat today: coffee (2X), 2 apples, 2 oranges, 3 good sized cookies, BIG plate of nachos (chips, cheddar cheese, salsa), 1 can of minestrone soup, rice protein powder (1 serving), a handful of cashews, and 1 slice of whole wheat bread. I have a hard time not focusing too much on what I eat. I loved the control feeling of being vegan. It will be hard to replace that.
